I went and saw Napoleon Dynamite tonight. It was pretty good. What’s with the hipster kids being obsessed with nerds. Trust me.. being a geek in school was not fun.
Speaking of which i got a message through that classmates website. This girl i must have known in elementary school sent me a message. She said what she really remembers about me was i wore ninja boots to school.
It’s so weird to think that that’s where her knowledge of me ends. She know nothing about Jamie the musician, the bmxer, the smartass, the smoker.
All she knows is the kid that use to cut his own hair, wear white elephant bell bottoms with ninja boots and a XXL sticks concert t-shirt to 6th grade.
Maybe i should not write her back. Maybe i should just leave her with that image of me. The geeky kid uncomfortable in his own skin. The kid that was so depressed about his situation growing up he tried to hang himself on his 9th birthday.
The kid that locked the door to his room and smashed his head into his dresser until he passed out.
The kid that use to look in the mirror and scratch at his face trying to tear it off because he thought he was so ugly.
My self image was so poor growing up.. The funny thing is now i look back at pictures of myself and i think i was a cute kid.
But other kids are fucking evil. It’s amazing to remember how i felt back then. Those kids crushed my sprit.
Well things have changed for sure.. I don’t feel that way anymore. Man being a little kid fucken sucked. I wouldn’t trade where I’m at now for anything.
Thank god for the 2 things that straightened my life out. BMX and Black Flag.
Oh yea… FYI Doug Muller if your out there I’m still gonna find you and fucking kick your ass.
Sorry for the downer posting.. Sometimes it’s like that.
On an up note were playing tomorrow. At the twilight. Should be a good time. You should all come out if you can. It’s the first full hated youth set in over 5 years!
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